My butt!
I'm not going to "try" to be active in extra-curricular activities anymore!
I've work my a** off last year and now I get this!
One must obtain 13A1s for a JPA scholarship...YEAH RIGHT! For a few of us only right? Not ALL.
Forget it, I'm not going to fight for any scholarships anymore...
And can you believe after all my hard work last year, I suddenly feel like it's all useless?
So what if I got into the Top 20 PMR scorers in Pahang?
I only got RM150 and an encyclopedia. Along with 56 other "cincai" chosen ones!
I know so many of my friends who I know did better in their PMR than the ones who got the Anugerah Menteri Besar Pahang with me.
Why can't they just take the Top 50 scorers instead? Why? Afraid that there's more of us?
Or only people who have connections inside the Jabatan will get it?
You know, I felt so cheap when I got the award... You know why? Because I could be classified by other people as one of "them".
"Oh, she probably got it because her dad got connections too..."
Or maybe there's still this ratio thingy...
Which I think should be abolished.
Give awards and scholarships to those who really deserve it..
AND what did the Menteri Besar Pahang say?
Oh yah, "I'm glad to say that our PMR results are getting better year by year..."
Why does he have to lie to himself? Or rather, lie to the public?
Yeah, the percentage of passes are increasing but why is that so?
Are you sure that our students are getting better?
Maybe we're actually getting more worse and they have to actually lower the grade of the exam..
Hmm... I should stop now.
Now I know that I'll have to work 10 times harder to be a part of their so called "cream of the crop"
cream de la cream?Labels: Life's like that, school
[ by meiyann at 5:27 PM ]
and my mum's in KL shopping while I'm stuck at home trying to study Physics and Chemistry...
The Mango Cheese Cake I bought from Deli's Choice. Hmm... It looks nice right? Don't be fooled by it! There's like only 5% of cheese in this. More mango-ish taste... And it's not moist enough. And it's a sponge cake that's worth RM22!!! Well... It IS a sponge cake... And you can't expect much from a cake that's only RM22...
Oh well, at least it's better than the expensive Secret Recipe Tiramisu Cake Jeremy bought last year. Which wasn't really worth his money since it was ALSO a sponge cake with big unsophisicated chunks of bananas in it. Actually, I enjoyed the banana, not the cake.
Labels: food
[ by meiyann at 9:49 AM ]
I really don't know what has become of me...
I feel like I'm full of jealously, sick of being around my gang of friends in school, can't trust anyone anymore, lost of social skills...
I don't wanna be like this. I hate this kind of feeling... But I just feel so out of place in my class, in my gang of friends... It's like I don't belong there anymore... I feel like a social outcast... But I'm not! I know that I have friends... But I just don't feel like I'm in the same line as them. Arghh!!! I don't even understand what I'm talking about! God...
I need someone to turn to...
And there's another thing in my mind right now that I really need to let go...
That b*tch! Argh... I can't stand her anymore...
She had the nerve to go up to Nerin and ask her "Hey, did you know that xxx likes Steph? She told me!"
WHAT THE HELL??? I never told her that! She's the one who took my handphone without my permission and read through my messaged PLUS sent items (I know, what kind of person does that?).
What is wrong with her? I didn't want to take action on her reading my text messages but this has gone way too far... Does she understand the word "privacy"???
I need to eat something to let go of my anger... Either that or I'm going to convert to Christianity right now and walk over to the church 3 houses away from here.
P/S Sorry for my b*tchness in this post. I just need to let it out...
I'm listening to: Q by Alice Nine.Labels: rambles
[ by meiyann at 6:17 PM ]
1) When do you want to get married?
A: Before 30! I want kids... ^^
2) What you want the most now?
A: For a serious relationship...
3) Who is the person you trust the most?
A: I don't even trust myself!
4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
A: Nope~
5) If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
A: I once dreamed of me sitting in a cafe waiting for my boyfriend. And then someone appears suddenly and hugs me from behind... I could really feel the love that time... I want that to come true...
6) Do you believe seeing a rainbow after the rain?
A: Yes.
7) What are you afraid to lose right now?
A: My new w910i.
8) Do you believe in eternal love?
A: Of course!
9) If you meet someone you love, will you confess to him/her?
A: Have I ever confessed to anyone before? No. Means I haven't meet that someone yet... And so I do not know how to answer this question.
10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you..
A: Straight to the point, good in graphic and art, can say foul words without feeling bad about it (this is good!)
11) What are the requirements do you wish from the other half?
A: Don't make me wait.
12) What type of person you hate the most?
A: People who read my messages without my permission and playboys/playgirls.
13) Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
A: I don't want to lose any friends...
14) Do you believe in god?
A: Yes!
15) What do you think the most important thing in your life?
A: My life.
16) Do you find the needs to have a boyfriend?
A: Yes! I want one now! I don't wanna wait! Now! This instance!
17) At this point of time, would you rather be a heartbreaker or heartbroken?
A: Heartbreaker. I've already been heartbroken...
18) What kind of friend do you want to be in your friend's eye?
A: So mui~
19) Describe the person who tag you in 6 words...
A: She is an incredible photoshop user.
20) The place you wanted to go most with your loved ones.
A: Family? Just watch tv at home...
Future lover? Same thing. ^^
Labels: surveys
[ by meiyann at 11:05 PM ]
1-[ ] Your bubblegum falls when you talk
2-[ ] Your bubblegum has fallen off your mouth though you are not speaking
3-[ ] You have hit with a door or something transparent4
-[ ] You have thrown yourself off a moving vehicle.
5-[x] You have thought in something funny, start laughing about it and ppl stare at you weirdly
6-[ ] You have hit with a tree while walking
7-[ ] It’s possible to lick your elbow
8-[ ] When you read this you tried to lick it
9-[ ] You have never noticed that the “abc song” and twinkle twinkle little star have the same tone
10-[x] When you read no.9 you sang them
11-[ ] You have tripped with your shoelaces.
12-[ ] You have chocked with your own saliva.
13-[ ] You have watched the matrix movie and didn’t understand it it
14-[x] You didn’t notice that I repeated the word “it” in the previous number
15-[x] You have just returned to see if it was true (Or else?)
16-[ ] Your hair is blond or dark-blond
17-[x] People have called you slow
18-[ ] You have set fire to something accidentally
19-[ ] Sometimes you leave your mouth open without thinking
20-[x] You have fallen asleep during class.
21-[ ] Sometimes you stop thinking
22-[x] Sometimes you forget what you were talking about
23-[ ] People stares at you weirdly and go away from you
24-[x] Very often you are told to listen the little voice in your head
26-[ ] You use your fingers to do simple subtractions or sums
27-[x] You have eaten an insect.
28-[x] You are doing this while you were supposed to be doing something important (Homework homework homework...!)
29-[x] You have wore your clothes wrong side
30-[x] You have looked for something and it was in your hand all the time
31-[ ] You send chain mails because you are afraid of those things happening
32-[x] You lose stuff very easily and often.
33-[ ] Your friends know that they shouldn’t use long words while speaking with you.
34-[ ] You hit your head with your hand when you get confused.
35-[x] You have fell of the chair.
36-[x] When you are laying on your bed staring at the roof you try to find figures in the roof’s texture.
36-[x] You repeat too often “ummmm..” when you’re speaking.
37-[x] You are afraid of something very very stupid
38-[ ] It’s hard to count the “x” you got.
TOTAL 1: 11
39-[ ] You had to count again
40-[x] You are asking why does it says 'TOTAL 1:11'
41-[x] You didn’t notice that no.36 was written twice and they are really stupid things
I've done 19/42 stupid things...
No one to tag....
Labels: surveys
[ by meiyann at 10:06 PM ]
Sorry! I love staying mysterious! ^^
